Pent up goodnight

I find myself laying in bed, the window open letting fresh cool air air, it helps me sleep and feel comfortable to use my blanket which is the only way I stay asleep. Feeling the cool air surrounding me, my body shivers and goosebumps rise from the electric feeling, calm but excited. As I lay here I'm clearing my mind, take of my shirt so I have only my sweat pants on now…. remembering I chose to go commando was a good decision it made me feel more free at night and I would always tell her that it's easy access for her during the night. Alone thinking of her as my mind clears, I find a nice picture of her just to see her smile brings a tear and long sigh as I reach for my water to help my dry mouth. I miss her and need her…I keep thinking of how good she makes me feel and makes me feel more of a man and complete. I can't help but desire her touch, the sound of her voice, the look in her eye when she's telling me about her day. I am drifting off and find myself calm and in need of a release of pent up feelings I've harboured missing her so. I only have my memory of her voice and the topic of personal pleasure we both shared deeply awhile ago …..as I slide back I feel myself getting harder and harder to an unbearable pain of pressure from cock throbbing begging for gratification. Grabbing my cock as if I imagine her holding in her hands, moving to a rhythm I feel she would go at….rubbing it slowly and then harder and then pinching the head to reset myself as she would tease me. Pinching the tip long and hard with the release did just that, making me want to come ever so much harder. Now rubbing faster and loosely…I can't hold it back any longer, feeling my cum explode out, I feel some hit my chest and my face from the pure pressure of the pent up energy I had towards her.it was much needed for I would never sleep feeling that way…. thinking about her and needing her. Laying there absolutely absent of thought, it comes back to me like a rollercoaster at the end of its run. I hear her voice in my thoughts asking me if I feel better and I was a good boy for taking care of myself as I chuckle at the thought but feel turned on at the same time. Missing her has been the toughest thing I've endured in recent years. I pray outloud that I get to be by your side as quickly as I possibly can. I fall asleep thinking of you and dream of you so I can be closer when I physically cannot….. My muse, my inspiration, I crave your soul and your warm embrace… Goodnight holder of my heart …..